TORN

I am torn between my beliefs and my health. I was told because of my Pulmonary Hypertension (PH) it was dangerous for me to have children. First. the medication I'm taking causes sever birth defects. Secondly, my heart wouldn't be able to handle the stress of being pregnant. That being said, I am Catholic and I am firmly Pro Life. I see no reason to have an abortion at all. Life is a precious miracle. 

I believe every child is born because God created them for a purpose. Each child is a gift from God and He doesn't make mistakes. I personally would rather die than have an abortion. I was a Pro Life minister for along time. So I feel strongly against abortion. I love children and I see no justification in abortion. No matter what the circumstance of the pregnancy. I received an email today about a Bishop in Phoenix that has separated the Catholic Church from a hospital (St. Josephs) because they provided a woman with an abortion and also ex-communicated the nun who authorized the abortion. Now I know that before any decisions are made, especially one of this magnitude, there is full investigation done into the situation. I firmly believe the Bishop was in full authority to make this decision based on his knowledge of this particular case. The woman who had the abortion had PH and that was the reason for the abortion. Knowing all this has occurred because of my Catholic faith and my medical condition it makes me think what I would do in this situation. I have talk to my Priest and received pardon from the church to use contraceptives. But I still would feel horrible for a child's life to be in my hands and not be able to carry full term.  Personally I would not have an abortion and put both our lives in God's hands and ask for His will to be done. 

The link below has the newspaper article and press conference video about the Bishops decision:

http://www.azcentral.com/arizonarepublic/news/articles/2010/12/22/20101222stjoes1222.html