Well my sister & best friend are both pregnant!!! I'm really excited but its a bitter sweet feeling. I can't have children so this is the closest I'll get to being a mom, I'm an Auntie!!! I am very excited but at the same time it hurts for me to shop & look at baby things. Knowing I'll never have this experience. I'll never feel a baby growing in me. I'll never shop for baby things I want for my little one. So shopping for my sisters & best friends baby if fun but it is also extremely hard. I have had a lump in my throat every time I see baby things. Or even when I'm in the same room and her them talking about the baby. I hate being like this. I don't want to be jealous of them or make them feel bad but my heart breaks a little more every time. All I can do is be a great Auntie to both little baby's.
My best friend is having a boy,Julian. He will be born in July. Mt sister is due in October but we still don't know the sex of the baby. This is an exciting new chapter for these two loving women. I pray God blesses them both and helps guide them to be wonder mothers to amazing children. But this is a chapter in my life that will never be written and I need to learn to be ok with that. God help me too!!!!
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